Monday, March 2, 2009

attention deficient permanency disorder

I've discovered that there are 2 things fundamentally wrong with my present life:

1. It seems I can only do math (without help) under very specific circumstances. These circumstances are the following:
-I must have gotten at least 6 hours of sleep (which I usually do)
-The directions must be VERY clear (which they usually aren't)
-I can't have been studying on other stuff all day (which is usually a given)
-It must be after 10AM (which is pretty inconvenient)
-I must be in a motivated mood (which really depends on the day).

So my chances of making successful calculations are...wait no, that would take math to figure out. Sigh.

I'm not even going to think about my chances of doing well on the SAT.

For example: I took a marine science test recently. I got 3 questions wrong. One of them was completely mathematical. I mean, it was arithmatic. And I had a calculator. And I still managed to screw it up. That is ridiculous. Like, embarassing. I'm screwed.

2. I'm substantially unorganized. There's a list of stuff that I want to do:
-Read like 6 books
-Take at least some advantage of online study guides for the SAT and ACT
-College research (I should just schedule a time)
-Online Health (there goes spring break)
-Recreational stuff like art and videos (the most likely to actually get done)
And none of it actually gets very far. I definitely need to come up with some sort of organizational system. I think my problem lies in the area of motivation and focusing. I know that if I could focus more I would get more stuff done.

Emily: "Focus, darnit!"
Emily's brain: ".....huh? What? Did you say something?"
Emily: "You're so lazy!!!"
Emily's brain: "On the contrary. I'm just putting my energy into whatever I'd like."
Emily: "But I need you to put your energy into whatever I'd like!"
Emily's brain: "............peanut butter..."
Emily: "GAAAAHHH!"

Is there a rehab institution for spacy people? I have a feeling that reforming is going to be a long process.

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